I am not happy with the progress I have made during this challenge. I am less than half way to my goal. For the last two weeks I have done nothing but move backwards. I have been eating crap since H-day. I am failing miserably.
I could give every excuse in the book, but the fact is this is how I operate. I get all hyped up and it lasts for about a month and then I go back to my old habits.
The thing is I really don't like that person. She is bitchy, she treats her husband like crap because she feels crappy about herself. She doesnt' spend enough time with her kids and would really rather not deal with them because she is so self involved and miserable. I don't want to be her anymore. I hate her.
I have to get back into that original mindset and start over. Maybe that is what I have to realize: That every day is a fresh start and I get to choose how it will go. I can't just rest on my laurels, I have to start over every day . For some people this may not be the case, but for me it is.
I wish it were different but its not. If wishes were pennies I'd be a millionare.
I must get my arse in gear.