I've been thinking a lot lately about what losing weight would really mean to me. Is it just that I want to get into a smaller size? Do I want the smaller number on the scale? What exactly is my focus?
I know that I want to be healthier. My family has a long history of heart disease, type 2 diabetes and other issues that an increased weight will make worse. But what constitutes healthy? That is what I am struggling with.
It can't be just a smaller number on the scale. I know several "skinny" people who are not what I would call healthy.
So what does it mean exactly? I think for me it is going to have to mean a major mindset shift. I need to begin thinking of food as fuel. I know that that is nothing new, but for me it is. Food has always been my best friend. The one who was always there when I need some comfort. It has seen me through some really trying times. I need to change that feeling of food as a reward for good behavior and a solace for feeling crappy.
I know that I certainly don't have the answers. Just lots and lots of questions.